Two months ago I would have started this blog out by saying how the weather has been or what I did over the weekend. In two months a person can be encouraged, influenced, and moved, but two months of complete obedience and submission to Jesus Christ will drive one to want more than this world. As I sit and overlook the incredible mountains of Costa Rica, I can't help but think of the artist of this beautiful picture. I never expected to have changed this much in just two months, but by God's unfathomable power and grace I can testify to His love. Living with thirty other students can be difficult at times, but the thing that holds us together is Jesus, without Him we would fall apart. I have realized my definition of living a christian life was completely wrong, until now I had God in a box I thought I could control what He did in my life. Until now my faith was tiny and motionless. Two months of listening to God and reading His word has taught me the power of prayer. Instead of putting my prayers off, I turn to prayer for everything! It's what I base a huge part of my relationship with God on. I now have a love for Him that I never knew was possible. I think back to my old life and all the time I wasted on trying to fill voids with things other than the only thing that can completely satisfy someone. I have experienced spiritual warfare and two months ago I would turn away scared, but now I drown the demons with worship for Jesus Christ. The battle has already been won, there's no need to exhaust myself in trying to fight, when I can just surrender everything and continue to receive His love and pour it out on others. I am so thankful for the Holy Spirit, without Him I would have no direction in my life. God has given me a peace about my future, I'm so glad He didn't leave it up to me because I would mess up and fail. I have given Him my dreams because mine are too small. He is a part of everything I do now, He gives me a joy no earthly experience could give me. His mystery is what makes getting to know Him better all the more exciting. The passion He has placed inside my heart is impossible to explain. All I want to do is live my entire life for Him. He never needed us, He wanted us. He doesn't love us because we're lovable, but because He's loving. Being here has made me fall in love with Him so much more!
